Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Standing...

I'm standing, I'm standing.
This i promise you...
I'll stand here.
I'm not ready for anyone but you.
I will try to believe...
I'll have faith in myself...
Only one that believe does succeed.
One that disbelieve have already being damned.



"Drifted"
Whats there left to hide?
I'll accept all the truth and lies with my open arms.
Theres nothing and you.
I'll take both.
Which adds up to you.
This is well... how generous i am.
We drifted apart almost 11 years now.
I still hope theres a chance of sailing together.
But still...
The uncertainty shoots right in.
It makes me speechless.
Similarly to you, sometimes...
when you try to avoid the awkwardness i solely given you.
And the verb that pops up as soon as u replied.

"Deem."
I'm starting to stop believing in myself.
Other than other else.
Just because i can't seems to make up my mind...
on decisions of deflection. 
Just by doing that, Ive closed by door to any other else.

"Times."
I can't believe that 2 months of internship have past.
And another 1 more to go.
It's definitely a fast journey, yet bumpy.
Slow pacing and energy spent on useless activities.
This is why it sucks so badly.
I prefer to have times where i can give out all my best...
and learn all the rest.
It just seems otherwise.

"Oath"
I had to give myself some support on having a healthier lifestyle.
For which i had to declare a oath.

I shall not have Fast food.
I shall not have Dinner.
I shall not drink Sweet Drinks.
I shall not consume any unhealthy food.
I shall jog 3 time a week.
I shall go to gym at least once a week.
I shall do as much sit ups as i can before going to bed every night.
I shall go to bed early.

"Last Words."
All the best to me...
I shall keep this blog up as much as i can.
Although i don't really need much a an audience over here.


Sunday, May 2, 2010

Choice...

I know it's been quite a long time since I've blog.
But i am pretty sure that this blog will still keep on breathing.
There is much...
 that i can write into this boring Rectangular Box.
But as a human, i can't possibly remember...
every single thing had happened.
I will wish for a Memory box that will register...
every highest and lowest point of life.



"Snapped "
Studio Projects over... eventually.
Another 3 months of Final year project will soon come kicking down the door.
I'm currently having my internship...
well... at someplace worst than hell.... i guess.
Remember Syed Alwi Road 207A.
2 month of seeing of the burnt and roasted, it's something i had to go through.
It somehow work this way, where i would think of the similar thought every morning when i rise from bed.
"Eh man, norgel, it will soon be over."

"People."
The Director. Well... Is the devil of all devils.
He say one... It will be one.
You could neither multiply 1 with 1 nor dividing 1 with 1.
Still... i cannot believe i'm working right directly under his demanding supervision.
I still hope i could learn as much from him,
Although everything he says, sounds stupid to me.

The Fei Por. I'll put her into the devil's wife.
Devilish as she could be...
Devilish at any condition,
at any quality, mistake, possibility, etiquette and devilish size as well.
I know it's bad to insult her at her back.
I know everyone has feelings.
So please think like me.
So please be aware that i got feelings.
And stop giving me work such as translating a 
freaking picture of your presentation slides at every 
millimeter possible.

Jew, Vu, Din and Pete...
The last few survivor that i could physically witness in the ridiculously small company.

I named him Jew, simply because he is the jewel of the whole Effing company.
I cannot imagine him gone.
He means a lot to the company.

Vu, a NTU guy, that really wants to get it rolling,
however got into the wrong company,
and unable to find the dice.
And then tried to cry but it's like mission impossible.
It applies to Jew too.

For Din,
I know you came from big companies like Dreamworks.
And i know you will be gone soon.
For why i don't really want to be aware of.
All i know, is that you showed too much of your "DREAMINGworks"
around the general population.
Technically it's the last place where you want to build your sand castle in the air.
Lastly for Pete,
I don't really know you well since you came later than me.

"Patience."
I hope i get much of a experience other than patience working with you guys.
Other than learning to tie the cables and printing CDs.
Do you really think we're here to do these?
Do you really think at all?

"Only"
Ha... good thing that i'm still single.
Although i'm looking forward to be with my love one...
Maybe the one had appeared, and left.
Or maybe she didn't appear at all.
It doesn't really matter... does it...
Why bother to cry the Eff?
What do i need from a girl?
I don't really need to be love
when all my good friends had already showered me with it.

I don't mind being alone.
All i need is a responsible one, someone who is understanding.
And in return, i'll definitely do the same.
Times where i'm out of focus, i tend to lose control and start to have feelings.
Just because of feelings,my life will change drastically.
I should just stay focus, on whose right and not.
I will not care. I'll just be myself.
The long road ahead, i shall witness the truth.

"Genuine."
Sometimes i do take sometime thinking in solitary.
Who are my real friends, that really care about,
and who are those who want to benefit for their selfishness.
For now, i'm not blinded...
But still...
Love comes in different form of perspective.
I love my friends in genuine, i really do...
At least believing in them really do work.
They might be the best friend that ever exist.